what does twenty six means? i tried searching in google but it didn't give me any sensible answers. i'm no numerology expert but when you add up 2 and 6 that will result to 8 which defines infinity. oh well, my summation is not really well researched, that's just my assumption! hahaha! maybe i am just trying to give a meaning to my age. but come to think of it? isn't "infinity" is such a hopeful and a positive word? it promises endless possibilities...
for the past 26 years of my life, i'd say my life has been my achievement. there have been quite a number of mischief and challenges I thought I won't be able to conquer, but hey! here i am standing still ready to face a new day.
i always thank God for the people i have and had in my life. for me, they are my real blessings. i may not have all dainty pricey stuff, but having the great bunch of people made me worth even richer than any richest man in the world. seriously! as in! they are the reason why i am, who i am and who i am not. why i have what i have now... or i don't...
how time flies, i still remember waiting for every saturday to eat pinipig crunch with my Pop, whenever he got his pay weekly. my mom pulling up my short hair to get my pigtail done. Me, singing "may isang pipit" on my Tatay Sulping's papag as if it was my stage. My "wowie" headband worn on my grade six class picture which made me looked really odd and my blue plastic attache case bag that has become my trademark whenever elementary days is reminded of. the awkward stage of being a teen ager. not a girl not yet a woman as they say.
i used to be a loner,though i still have my autistic days once in a while, but i have my ways of keeping friends too! and i tell you those whom i have named friends they have remained to be my friends. from elementary, HS. college, workmates or even yung minsan ko lang nakasabay sa bus. isn't that an achievement itself?! di man ako lumaki sa marangyang buhay, but the memories i have gathered all these time, are all worth keeping. for some i wouldn't be surprised if you'll envy me.
siguro nga, i have taken each day as it comes. lahat yata ng phase na dapat pagdaanan ng isang growing individual pinagdaan ko. except drugs and sex? whoa! now this is a statement!
there was one time na na-praning ang mama ko sa pagaakalang nag rerebelde ako, little did she know i am just exploring all my other possibilities, and now, alam ko kahit paano my family can be proud of me. somehow in my simple ways i have given them pride. i have not so far drag their name to shame.(hopefully i can keep it that way). i am not an ideal daughter i know, i have had caused them troubles too, but it was all part of the lessons i had to learn the hard way. what's important is that i have maintained this high regard with life, myself, the people around, my family and God.
it's so amazing how i have become. my life that is. i am so blessed and so loved. the opportunities and experiences are overwhelming. siguro sa iba, they'd say ang babaw ko, but isn't the most precious joys are the ones uncomplicated and simple. though i know there are still spaces for me to fill in, roles to undertake, struggles to overcome and win. i know keeping my hopes high and maintaining a positive mind will help me to get there.
i am not perfect not even close to one. i did and still does bad things. but i am continuously learning. aiming to become better each day. you can judge me or name me names for all i care, but the truth is, i still know myself best.
to pave way to another year of life's blessings, may i extend my deepest gratitude to all the people who made my life worth living. To my parents who have instilled the virtues of unselfishness and consideration, to my sister who have taught me to understand love in spite and despite of , to everyone who made me feel blessed and encouraged me to be more appreciative and to GOD whom i owe everything to.
I hope somehow, i have embarked something... my only wish is that i can be at least an instrument to other to see how beautiful life is. i have my own issues when it comes to my esteem, nevertheless i wouldn't want to take away from people the chance to feel that they too are of significance. if i may borrow a quote, it is not who you are that matter but how you made others feel by being who you are that counts.
cheers to the infinite! i live to be happy and hopefully everyone does too!
That was so sweet what you just did. the drama ha! anywho.. happy birfday again to you. i greeted you the other day on your myspace but i don't think you open it that often. miss ya! 
